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The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 06:24 AM |
Yes, it is true, in many ways this is the most difficult and saddest thing I have ever called upon myself to write.
For some years now I have - though increasingly less of late for reasons which will become clear - been intimately involved with this wonderful world. First as a player and more recently as a DM and builder.
In many ways it was my personal life, my 'real life' which gave me the time to do that and devote endless hours first to discovering and playing within Vives and latterly helping to shape it and enhance the enjoyment of others.
Few among those I have encountered, even those I have come to regard as friends, are aware of the nature of my life away from here. Paul I know is one, perhaps the only one unless he has mentioned it to others. They have been difficult years and years which at last after much heartache on my part and that of my children are at last coming to a close and seeing some form of resolution for all of us.
Unfortunately that has meant less time to devote on my part to Vives, and the development of Vives 2, resulting in my last disappearance and most lately my abortive attempt at a return - yes, it really is that difficult to stay away. Since that 'return' it has become increasingly clear to me that I simply - due to real life circumstances - do not have the time to devote to Vives or Vives 2 as I would wish. It is unfair to the player base and to other members of the team to pretend or attempt otherwise.
Also, I have *shock horror* met, and fallen in love with a wonderful woman through the internet, perhaps more surprisingly the feeling is mutual *more shock horror!* So in addition to finally resolving and pulling together the shattered strands of my life as it existed I now have a future to plan with her also, since we live more than a 1000 miles apart it is one which is going to prove interesting to say the least but one which both of us fully intend to see come to fruition.
As such this means that what limited time, and god knows there is little enough of it, that I am able to spend on-line is spent with her.
During my time here I have met and come to regard as friends an absolute horde of people, I am not going to list names since I wouldn't want to upset any my ageing and at times failing memory would miss. I would like you ALL to know, however, every single one of you, that you will be missed.
I thank every single one of you that I have ever interacted with or spoken with however limited that interaction may have been and would like to assure you that I have enjoyed every single second and will miss those times, and at the same time look back on them with a great deal of fondness and joy.
Will I return?
None of us know the future, for the first time in many years mine is looking to be one filled with happiness and hope and something to look forward to, that has not been the case for almost ten years now so I am sure I will be forgiven for grasping that opportunity with both hands and holding onto it as tightly as possible.
I wish every single one of you, players, DMs, admins the very best of good fortune in the future and the happiness you all deserve. It may be that at some time in the future I am able to come back even if only as a player and sample Vives 2 once it is up and running, I simply do not know. If I can, I will.
Until then, if that should happen, a very fond and painful farewell to each and every one of you.
Benny |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 06:39 AM |
| I'm glad to know your life is finally taking a turn for the better. As for this lady of yours a thousand miles away, with modern technology and transportation, anything is possible. It's a shame to see anyone go, but we must realize this is in fact a game, and real life must perpetually come first. Suck the marrow out of life, as Thoreau said! |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 08:26 AM |
| Good on ya Benny! Don' fergit ta only kiss yer gerlfrend on Tuesdays!! *waves* |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 08:47 AM |
Hey Benny,
No worries. Your kids are always more important. After all, it's more fun beating them than it is some nameless PC. Excuse me, I need to go beat my kids to bed.
As for the Woman thing. Watch out. Their sneaky. Next thing you know, you'll end up married with more kids.
You know where to find us if you ever want to stop by for some abuse.
Hope this time around works out better!
- Paul |
Purpose in life: finding better ways of allowing players to kill themselves. Repeatedly.
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"...Cause he mixes it with love
And makes the world taste good."
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<@James42> Lawful good isn't in your vocabulary, it's on your menu.
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 08:53 AM |
Heya Benny :)
I hope things work out in the best possible way for you. You'll be missed here for sure, and it'd be great to "see" you now and again :)
Don't forget I met a rather wonderful woman on the Interweb, through here in fact (that would be Lisen for those not in the know)......... and it worked out better than I had ever imagined. We were thousands of miles apart as well, so I'm sure it'll work out brilliantly.
Take care buddy :)
- Ara/Chris |
Vives Screenshots!
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 09:21 AM |
Glad to hear your life is looking up, Benny! I hope we'll see you around in some form or other, and that you'll continue to tell your stories from Vives to the kids.
Don't listen to Paul. He is just jealous that men don't get a 4d6 emotional sneak attack at level 1 that increases by 1d6 every 4 levels.
Thanks for all the mentoring, the help, the collaboration and plotting, the RP sessions and the stories. Vmaaanelvla for now, and may it all work out for you.
- Dianne |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 09:39 AM |
Farewell Benny, it was great having you around and I'm terribly pleased that things have turned up for you. And up, and up, and up!!
All my best,
Matt |
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about dying."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"It means lying in the ground with dirt on your face and holding your breath forever."
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 12:03 PM |
Aww, sad to hear you go Benny. You were always one of the players that kept drawing me back into Vives, time and time again. Though when I think on it now, most of the conversations we've shared were OOC ones, I know they were responsible for sparking many of my creative brainchilds (brain-children?), However large or small. You always had a way of getting the thoughts flowing. That, or getting under my skin when we disagree on something. =D
And because of that, all of that, I am so glad to hear that things are finally heading in the up direction for you. Don't you love it when things just... work? With that said, I wish you only the best in all the future holds for you. You deserve it, Benny.
-Charlie |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 01:17 PM |
Benny!!
*hugs* I'm so happy to hear that things are going well for you in real life. Good luck and so much happiness in all that you do. You were one of the first people I met here and I always felt like you 'took me under your wing' so to speak, one of the reasons I got hooked so well and quickly. I, and Bronwyn, mention your name often to hope your doing well. All the best in love and life, my friend.
Trishy |
Trishy
Macha Sparrowsong - Song is my life
Coretta Alandar - Cleric of Midoran
Dekla Debena - whatever
Not all people who wander are lost.
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 01:51 PM |
| Sorry to see you go, Benny. Never got to RP or talk with you a whole lot, but your dedication to and love of the server was clear and always appreciated. Glad to hear you have these great opportunities in front of you; family is everything! |
The world is a fine place, and worth fighting for...
-- Ernest Hemingway |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 10:15 PM |
Shame to leave you leave, Benny. Making fun of elves will never be the same without you around, not to mention brutally murdering them or dreaming about the genocide of their entire race in a big fiery mushroom cloud of Midoran wrath (does Midoran have an epic spell called "Atom Splicing"?, he should get one.)
You were one of the first players I ever got around with in Vives, along with Aesir, who is also gone, and PDW. We're being overtaken by this new generation of punks, with no appreciation to snotty elves and the potential bloodbaths they bestow!
Glad to hear the mess that is Life!(tm) is starting to work out for you. Good bye and good luck! |
WickedArtist: I think he needs a proper elf.
WickedArtist: A christmas elf!
Tasra: Any sort of elf that actually smiles ;o
Gasp! Scandalous!!! |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 10:26 PM |
Benny,
I'd like to not sound trite or repetitive... but I'm afraid I'm going to anyway. You really -did- put a lot into Vives, and it will definitely not be the same without you.
One thing I think I can say, that hasn't been said yet... you always seemed to know your sh1t! Even if there were occasions when I wanted to throttle you, I always had a lot of respect for what you brought to Vives... either as a DM, a moderator, or player...
and for your creativity that spawned all the stories and quests.
And back to the repetitive stuff... (though, it really IS true...) glad to hear you found someone who ..."fits"
Best wishes man,
-BKatt |
"I'm not closed-minded, you're just WRONG." - Bucky Katt
My characters n portraits |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 24 Sep 2007 10:30 PM |
Benny I am both sorry to see you go, and sad to hear of the pain you've been going through. I hope life looks up for you here on out. I wish you the best.
I don't know if I said this before, but you had a HUGE influence on Zubeida. I wouldn't have taken more than three druid levels (she was to be a wizard with two cats) except that the mother (you) saved her one night on the standing stones from three aggressive characters.... yadda yadda yadda. That one impromptu event also cemented my interest in Vives. Ancient history I know, but I wanted to share that with you, and let you know how much I enjoyed playing with you over the past year.
So long, and good luck. |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 25 Sep 2007 09:22 AM |
| Another oldie but goodie! Thanks for all the fun Benny. You are a joy to have ig as a player and DM. You will be missed greatly! One of my favorite times was the attack on the Port. *smiles* Take care mate and best of luck to you! |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 26 Sep 2007 09:37 AM |
| Congrats Benny! Enjoy your new endeavors to the fullest. :) |
"PLEASE!!! Bury me with it!" |
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Re: The hardest thing I have ever written
Posted: 26 Sep 2007 06:18 PM |
Benny, you've been here pretty much the whole time I have, so in some senses, I feel like we grew up together. I always had a lot of fun, and hope that you continue to enjoy yourself wherever you take yourself.
-Hubert |
The Legacy Saga |
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